The question we were asking ourselves was it autism, a developmental delay or worse a brain tumor? It is crazy what all goes on in your mind when you want answers to a scary situation. I remember how helpless, lonely and scared we were. Something was wrong with our son, he was not the same child that he was just a few months before. I could not eat or sleep. Every time I woke up during the night I had him on my mind and the moment I got up each morning I had a fear and anxiety I can not quite explain. I would research on the internet and the puzzle started to somewhat come together. The symptoms of autism were becoming more relevant as the days passed. I would see a new symptom and then I saw Luke act in the way it described, and I just knew. My heart was broken. I cried so much, and most days seemed like a blur, like a sunset in the rearview mirror. I felt like I was driving but still looking behind me for someone to help. I wanted to help Luke so much. I wanted to find him the right doctor, the right therapy, the right diet.
Something was certainly going on with our son between the age of 15-18 months old, but what caused the change, what went wrong. I began to blame myself. Was it something I did or did not do during pregnancy?? As a parent you want the best for your child. You want your child to be healthy and learn like other children their age. You have so many dreams for them and in a moment things change. You know that he will be different, taking care of him will be a challenge, and you worry about his future.
Autism is a very hard diagnosis but one thing I have learned is the diagnosis does not change your child, you see the whole world in a new way. My son has taught me so much more than I could teach him. He has taught me to be more humble, to not take one day for granted, you CAN do things you thought were impossible, to love more and God always has a plan. God has a plan for his life and I am so blessed that God chose me to be his mom.
I am his voice, he is my whole world and more.
Greetings! Very helpful advice in this particular article! It’s the little changes thast make the most important changes. Many thanks for sharing!|
Thanks so much for your comment! Autism can be a challenge at times, but I know God has a plan. Best wishes to you and your family. Also don’t forget to add your email and subscribe so you know when I post again. Thanks so much!